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About the book
Elijah Rolene is a lost man. Following the death of his wife, he quits his job as a police pilot and turns to prescription painkillers for comfort. Not content to watch him destroy his life, his veterinarian sister convinces him to help out at her animal shelter.
Soon, they rescue a rare white lion cub from the heart of Detroit's gangland. The lion is brought to live with them and instantly connects with Elijah's autistic niece, Harper. As Harper is brought out of her shell, so Elijah begins to heal as well. But something happens that puts their family at risk and threatens to tear their world apart.
Elijah is faced with a question that will define the rest of his life: How far will you go if you have nothing left to lose?
Prologue
Sitting behind the wheel of an asthmatic white Ford Transit, a van shedding
rust and smoke in almost equal measure, Elijah Rolene stared down at the
mound of painkillers in his hand. Of the seven tablets, he noticed, four
were shaped like miniature coffins; their embossed logos resembling flower
arrangements perched on their lids.
‘Whatever,’ he whispered to himself, hauling them to his mouth.
Months ago he would have needed a drink to get them down – bourbon,
preferably. But things were different now. As an accomplished prescription
painkiller addict, a real ‘pill pro’, he had taken to chewing the tablets. Not
only did this get the drugs into his bloodstream faster and heighten their
effect, but it was more convenient as well. He’d grown tired of having to be
on the lookout for a bar or a drink of water. Tuning out the now-familiar
bitter taste, Elijah closed his eyes and listened to the sound of the rain and
sleet peppering the windscreen. When he looked again, a shrouded figure
was waving to him from beneath a porch light. Despite having resigned
from the Detroit PD months ago, here he was again, parked outside yet
another violent crime scene in the middle of the night. He marvelled at how
the universe had a way of twisting the knife long after the blade had been
withdrawn.
Reluctantly, he reached for the door. As he averted his eyes from the
storm, he noticed that the sticker on the side of the van was cracked and
beginning to peel away. What should have read Detroit Animal Rescue Team
framed by a D.A.R.T. acronym, was now one letter short. It read A.R.T.
Rescue Team. Which, at a different time in his life, might have been worth
a smile.
As he trudged towards the porch the tall, dark figure hurried out to meet
him. Although Elijah could see almost nothing of the man’s face, he didn’t
need to. Only one person in the department walked with such a distinctive
stoop, the consequence of a high-speed pursuit that had ended with three
dead carjackers and had left him with a severely compacted spine. It was
Andrew Matthews, one of his few remaining friends. They were a dying
breed; their numbers thinning by the day.
Sacrificing his right shoulder to the storm, Andrew reached out with an
umbrella. ‘Hey, Pilot, thanks for coming,’ he said, the wind snatching at his
words. ‘I wasn’t sure you’d show. It’s good to see you. How’ve you been?’
Elijah nodded, searched his locker for a smile, but found none. ‘Been
doing all right, Andy. It’s good to see you too.’
‘Did you get my messages?’
‘Yeah. Sorry I haven’t called,’ he replied, not bothering with an excuse.
‘I’m full of shit, I know.’
‘It’s all right, I understand. But if it’s all the same to you, I’m going to
keep leaving messages. Okay?’
‘Yeah. Okay.’
Grateful to be let off the hook, Elijah stepped up onto the porch. He
kept his head bowed but could feel the stares of the officers around him. A
detective, who Elijah had once flown to hospital after the man had taken
a shot to the chest, stuck out a hand. ‘It’s been too long, Eli. You doing all
right?’
There was a note of real sincerity in his voice, but there was also pity.
‘Yeah thanks, Rus. How about you?’
‘Knee-deep in dead assholes … living the dream.’
Elijah nodded and turned to the next stare.
A gawking patrol officer quickly turned away and reached for his phone
as if suddenly remembering an urgent call that he needed to make at two in
the morning. Another familiar face, a grizzled investigator standing at the
edge of the porch, glanced up at him. As their eyes met, the man withdrew
a notepad from his top pocket, nodded briefly, and disappeared into the
house.
‘Hey, Andy,’ Elijah whispered. ‘How about we move this along?’
‘Yeah, of course. Sorry about the sideshow treatment,’ he said, zipping
up his jacket. ‘Luckily we don’t have to go into the house. And I do mean
luckily. The animals are in a room out back.’
As Andrew led the way through what technically was a garden but, in
reality, was no such thing, he explained the scene in typical broad strokes.
‘Five pushers. Four executed in the back of the head. One wore it in the
face. Rawlings reckons trigger time was days ago. Can you believe that? It’s
beyond nasty in there,’ he said, pulling a face. ‘A real meat and worm fest.’
‘Yeah, I figured as much. I could smell it from the van. Even with the
windows closed. That’s why I chose choppers over patrol cars. At least I
could breathe up there,’ he replied. ‘So, tell me about the animals.’
‘Well, our dealers were pushing more than just blow and her friends.
They have a store room full of cages. Half a dozen fighting dogs. All sorts of
exotic animals. Snakes, fish, birds, a fucking jaguar if you can believe it and,
if that isn’t enough, four white lions.’
Elijah frowned, thought he had misheard. ‘White lions?’
‘Well, I’m no Richard Attenborough, but they’re lions … and they’re
white, so –’
‘You mean David. Richard’s the actor,’ Elijah corrected him. ‘How the
hell did they get their hands on white lions?’
‘No idea yet. There’s big money in exotic animals. Maybe some hip hop
asshole wanted them to match the carpets in his lounge. I don’t know. We
think they might’ve been lifted from a circus.’
‘Any of the animals still alive?’
‘Not that I could make out, but who knows? They’ve been without food
and water for a long time. No heat either.’
Andrew stopped in front of a large steel door at the back of the house
and reached for the lock. ‘Look, Pilot, before we go in can I say something?’
‘Is it about Georgia?’
‘Yeah, it’s about Georgia.’
‘Then I’d rather you wouldn’t. If that’s all right. Maybe some other time.’
Andrew stared at his friend, the rain and sleet trailing down the rim of
his umbrella. ‘Okay, Pilot. Whatever you say.’ He offered a thin, almost
pained smile before turning around and pushing through the door.
The smell of death, a thick and putrid soup, made Elijah’s eyes water.
‘Jesus. This took how many days to get called in?’
‘You know how it is. Most people around here would rather put up with
the smell than phone us. Sorry, I should’ve warned you. There’s not much
in the way of ventilation in here,’ he said, fishing out a clean handkerchief
from his jacket. ‘Take this.’
Elijah held the cloth to his mouth and waded inside.
As he did, Andrew flicked a switch and a single globe cast a dim light
over the room.
More than two dozen cages were stacked on top of each other.
Decaying mounds of fur and flesh lay slumped in different poses. A variety
of fighting dogs, bred to tear each other apart, had, in their final hours,
huddled together for warmth. Their bodies pressed against one another
through the mesh of their cages. A bloated snake, covered in flies, lay
curled up in a wooden box, the neck of a broken desk lamp hanging over
it. Dead fish bobbed in small tanks coated black with algae. A pair of large
parrots lay side by side, their bright feathers writhing with ants. Elijah’s
eyes moved into the shadows of the room, towards a cage that appeared to
contain nothing more than a rumpled black blanket. A blanket that, with
the aid of Andrew’s flashlight, revealed itself to be a young jaguar.
Elijah shook his head.
‘Yeah, I know,’ Andrew nodded.
Elijah studied the jaguar for a while longer before looking away.
‘Where are the lions?’
Andrew pointed his torch to what looked like a slight alcove, where a
fireplace might have been. Elijah’s eyes followed as the light washed over
the back of an enormous white figure. It was twice the size of the jaguar
and, in the low light, resembled a stone statue lying on its side.
Together, they moved in towards the cage.
The lioness’s giant, silken head was leaning against the bars, as though
she were asleep. Unlike the rest of the animals, there seemed to be more
life left in her, as if she had managed to hold on longer than the others.
Apart from the sunken hollows of her eyes, there were few overt signs of
decomposition.
‘And here’s the really shitty part,’ Andrew said, his words low and
heavy. He pointed the flashlight at her abdomen, the beam lighting up
three small bodies pressed to her stomach. The cubs were spooned against
one another, instinctively searching for heat that had long since departed.
Elijah lowered onto his haunches. Without thinking, he pushed a
finger through the cage and touched the cub closest to him.
The last thing he expected was for the dead little lion to raise its head.
‘Shit!’ Andrew called out, his torchlight pouncing on the cub.
A white face, its crystalline blue eyes blinking in the harsh torch light,
turned and looked at Elijah.
‘What the hell – How’s this one still alive?’ Andrew asked, his voice
lifting.
Elijah pointed at the dead mother. ‘Must’ve survived on her milk.’
Andrew reached through a hatch at the back of the cage, felt the
stiffened bodies of the other two cubs, and quickly shook his head.
The room’s sole survivor leaned towards Elijah and then pressed his
nose against the cold steel of the cage. Twisting his head, he stuck a paw
through the mesh and touched Elijah’s hand.
Most people would have felt a spark of electricity – a flicker of emotion
– at the lion’s touch. A miraculous white lion cub left to fend for itself
in the first weeks of an already savage Detroit winter, no less, but Elijah
hadn’t felt much of anything in months. He was too numb; too far gone
to be reached. A living dead man in whose veins a stream of fresh drugs
now flowed.
Oblivious to Elijah’s indifference, the lion cub continued to stare at
him, his fire-blue eyes never wavering.
Part 1
The Girl in the Mask
Two weeks later
Elijah held open the door and watched as Harper once again ignored the
box of black-and-white kittens at her feet and, instead, ran straight for the
bird cages at the back of the shop. Hearing the door open, the owner of the
pet store looked up and rose from her chair beside the cash register. She
recognised the handsome man and his niece from the previous afternoon.
He was tall and blue-eyed and had short brown hair. Good looking, striking
even, but with a face that seemed to have travelled further than the rest of
him. Thick stubble ran down his cheeks and disappeared down the neck of
his shirt. The bags under his eyes looked almost painted on. Once again, the
child was wearing a paper mask over her face. This time she was a crocodile.
‘You’re back,’ the store owner called out, ‘and I see your niece still has her
heart set on those doves.’
‘Morning,’ Eli said softly. ‘She’s not big on changing her mind.’
The woman smiled, more than was polite, and slipped her fingertips into
the front of her tight denims. ‘It’s so strange.’
Not wanting a conversation, but knowing that one was inevitable, Eli
took the bait. ‘What is?’
‘Well, most children her age are only interested in the really cute animals,’
she explained, cocking an elbow at the kittens. ‘You know … cats, puppies,
rabbits. All the usual suspects from the world of cartoons. The kids who are
interested in birds always want the colourful ones. And I mean always. The
finches, parrots … the lovebirds. And yet your niece only has eyes for those
grey doves.’
‘She’s not like other girls her age. She sees the world a little differently
to most.’
‘I’m surprised she can see anything through those masks.’
Eli nodded, but felt no need to explain his niece’s autism to a complete
stranger.
‘I’m curious. Has she told you why she wants the doves?’
He watched as Harper pushed two fingers between the bars and gently
stroked one of the birds. ‘I think she worries that all the popular animals will
get homes and the others will be left behind.’
‘You’re joking. She told you that?’
‘In her own way.’
The truth was that Harper seldom spoke at all. On those rare occasions
when she did, it was only a few words at a time. Eli had seen the answer in
her drawings. She had sketched a picture of the pet store depicting a line
of people buying all the popular animals while the doves at the back of the
shop were left alone in the dark. While autism may have robbed her of
many things, it had given her just as many in return. Included in this was
an unfailingly kind heart and the ability to conjure up the most remarkable
pictures. Her talent, coupled with a clear and vivid memory, bordered
on the extraordinary. More than anything, she loved to create and paint
paper masks which she would wear for hours at a time, sometimes even
days. Handmade into hundreds of different designs and shapes, the masks
comforted her and formed a protective barrier which she used to keep the
world at arm’s length. She would often exhibit the characteristics of whatever
mask she was wearing at the time. From animals to people, the ocean to the
moon, each mask carried with it its own personality. For the most part, all
the world ever got to see of the real Harper were two enormous green eyes
and long tendrils of curly black hair. Unfortunately, the mask-wearing had
intensified since Georgia’s death. Eli could barely remember when last he
had seen her precious face. Regardless, he understood how important the
masks were in allowing her to deal with the world. Sometimes he wished he
had a few masks of his own.
‘All right, angel,’ he called out. ‘Are you sure you want those doves?’
The crocodile nodded.
‘How many are we talking? Two? Three?’
A shake of the head.
‘How many then?’
She looked back at the three cages. There were nine doves in total. She
turned around and held up nine fingers.
‘C’mon … Your mother’s going to murder me. Why so many, angel?’
The crocodile’s face turned to the floor and whispered something. It was
her first and possibly only word for the day.
‘What was that, baby?’ Eli asked, lowering onto his haunches.
‘Family,’ she whispered.
Eli nodded and, as had become his habit, he repeated the word. ‘I hear
you, crocodile … family.’ He kissed the top of her head and turned to the
store owner. ‘We’ll take them all.’
The woman looked down at Harper and raised her hands to her mouth
in an exaggerated gesture. ‘Wow. Those birds are so lucky. I never thought
anyone would buy them. You’re such a special girl for choosing them.’
Unmoving, the crocodile stared at her, but said nothing. For some
absurd and inexplicable reason, Harper’s lack of a reaction pleased Eli. There
was something forced and oddly predatory about the woman’s manner that
didn’t sit well with him. As they headed for the cash register, cages dangling
from fingers and packets of birdseed tucked under arms, the store owner
adopted an overly casual tone and, either consciously or not, pushed out her
already considerable chest. ‘So … no children of your own?’
If Eli was taken aback by the question, he didn’t show it. ‘No.’
‘May I ask why not?’
He looked at her briefly and then slowly shook his head. ‘It’s complicated.’
He could have told her that his wife was dead, but that really wasn’t the
reason why he had no children. The truth was that both his and Georgia’s
family had been completely devastated by cancer. Most people knew
someone – a friend or a loved one perhaps – who had battled the black crab
at some point. But, for Eli’s family, cancer was not a disease that merely
lurked on the periphery of their lives; it was a constant life companion, a
spectre that followed them everywhere. An almost guaranteed inheritance
or, as one oncologist put it, a family shadow. Both sets of grandparents as
well as their own parents had all been claimed by the disease. Even Georgia’s
estranged brother was now battling stomach cancer. Whether by corrupted
genetics or the whims of the gods, not a single member of their family had
lived past fifty-five. So what possible chance could a child bearing their
combined DNA have in the world? Fatefully, Eli had met Georgia during
chemotherapy and they had courted all the way through their poisoned
drips, beyond radium treatment and right through to their semi-annual
blood tests. They had both recovered, even made it into what the world
knew as remission, but for them it was more like an intermission than
anything resembling a cure. A family, in the true sense, was never really an
option.
‘I–I’m sorry,’ the woman stuttered. She suddenly sounded shy and
embarrassed. ‘It’s really none of my business. I didn’t mean to pry.’
‘It’s fine, really,’ he replied, waving his free hand. ‘How much do I owe
you?’
The woman’s eyes turned to the sanctuary of the register and quickly
rang up the sale. Eli handed over his credit card and, before he was able to
stop himself, his mouth opened. ‘My wife died earlier this year.’
The store owner looked up at him, wide-eyed. ‘I’m so sorry.’
He paused and then nodded. ‘Thank you for the doves. They’ll have a
wonderful home. Harper will make sure of it.’
‘I have no doubt,’ she replied, trying to regain her composure. ‘When is
Harper’s birthday?’
‘Monday, but the party is this afternoon.’
The woman reached across the table and lifted a small plastic mirror off
a display stand. She leaned over and handed it to Harper. ‘Happy birthday,
darling. Your birds can use this to make sure that their feathers are always
neat.’
Harper reached out and accepted the mirror. She stared at her own
reflection and then turned to Eli. ‘Crocodile.’ Her mouth opened and
closed. Click. Click.
It was her second word of the day and it gave Eli an immediate lift.
‘Crocodile,’ he repeated, and then felt her delicate fingers wrap around
his thumb.